Does absence make the heart grow fonder??

Well it has officially been 2 months since Marty went to Virginia to work. So I have been asking myself the question "does absence make the heart grow fonder"? I have been told this frequently. As many of you know I used to stay angry or upset with my husband. There were some days that I seriously wanted to pack mine and the kids things and leave. Our marriage hasnt been perfect my any means and we have had some serious downfalls in the short period that we have been married. There have been times when I just want to say "why dont you get it", "why cant you appreciate what I do for you"? I have been emotionally drained several times because of some of the stupid things he does. He has never cheated on me, the only other thing in his life is the Reserves and that has been the downfall in our marriage since he joined in 2006. He has missed out on alot because of the Reserves and when I confront him with it he just argues with me and tells me to get over it. I told him to go live with one of the guys in the Reserves and see if they wash his clothes and fold them & see if they like to cuddle in the bed with him....he still didnt get it. Anyways back to my question, well my answer is "YES". With Marty being gone it has been hard, I do MISS him and I do LOVE my husband very much. But now when I call him in the afternoon to say hey he is happy to hear from me, when he comes home he is excited to see me and wants to hold on to me longer. I send him text everyday that I love him and he sends them back. I also like to surprise him by sending him a card by mail to the hotel that he is staying in. I sent one last week and he recieved it on Monday, he text me to let me know that he recieved his card and that he "LOVED IT AND LOVES ME". Yes I can honestly say I was in total shock!! Marty is coming home this weekend and Im looking foward to our time together.

My nerves are shot

My nerves are shot so I'm not even going to try to figure out how to move my signature thing to the bottom of this, it is aggravating me...
I think I'm just tired and overwhelmed and as I write this I'm ready to just cry. I don't know what it is, well I'm lying I do know what it is. Hayden is still coughing his head off and I'm going to keep him out of school for the rest of the week. That means he doesn't get to go on his end of the year field trip with his class. They are going to to Bouncin Wild and if he goes hen he would get all hot and start coughing to the point that he would probably throw up. He is such a ACTIVE child and cant sit still. He will also miss out on his tball game this week too. I wish he could just get better.
I'm feeling much better (other than my nerves). I had a good day today so I don't understand why all of a sudden I feel like I do. Maybe it is because I'm going to bed alone and I miss my husband, maybe I'm tired of my children not wanting to listen to me and I'm always having to get on to them about something, maybe I just need a vacation. Oh well tomorrow is another day and hopefully I will feel better by morning. Only a week and a half until Marty comes home for the weekend so maybe that will help too!!

Can we ever get better

We are not in the hospital!! I took Hayden to the hospital this morning to meet Dr Jamal. As usual he was acting fine and not like he was sick. I on the other hand was, I felt like crap & my boss could tell. We went into the triage room for him to check Hayden out. He listened to him & asked how he did through the night. As I was telling him he looked at me and asked me if I got any sleep last night. I told him that I slept a little but that I just wasn't felling good, so once he was done checking Hayden out and giving me instructions on what to do with Hayden he sends Dr Gina in to check me out. I felt like a lil kid there to see her pediatrician!! Anyways Hayden has bronchitis and we have to do breathing treatments 4 times a day and take a antibiotic for the next five days. What Hayden doesn't know yet is that later this week I have to take him to have his blood work done before he goes to his endocrinologist on Friday. Lord what a week this is going to be. I looked back today at in the past month I have spent over $100.00 at the pharmacy. I'm over this, at one point today when my husband text me "I Love you" I was ready to cry. I think I'm just over whelmed right now with Hayden getting sick again and I'm not feeling good. It takes a tole on you, especially when you are doing it alone. I'm ready for everyone to get better around here, hopefully that will be soon. Thank you for keeping us in your prayers. Oh yeah Dr Gina gave me medicine for my illness too, my tonsils are swollen and I have fluid on my ears.. I love my pediatrician!! LOL

Hiho hiho its off to the doctor we go...again

Saturday night Hayden was at my inlaws and started coughing about 11:00 and coughed all night long. Of course my mother-in-law didn't call me to inform me so I was told Sunday morning when my father-in-law dropped them off. We went to church and he was coughing all morning when we came home I gave him some cough medicine that I had and a breathing treatment. He seemed to be fine, he played outside for a little while and then came in and got ready for awanas. we went to awanas and he played and started coughing real bad again and started breathing hard again. When we got home he had another breathing treatment and went to sleep before 8:00. When I went to bed I put him in my bed so I could monitor him, around 9:45 he spiked fever of 102 and started breathing really hard. I called Dr Jamal and she told me to give him medicine for the fever and another breathing treatment and to call him back, he said if it didn't help then he would admit him. I did what he said and he called me back. Thank God it helped, he told me that the fever was making him wheeze really hard but he wants me to meet him on the pediatric floor at the hospital at 7:30. So hiho hiho its off to the doctor we go...please pray that he doesn't admit him. He is acting fine as I type this he is just coughing real hard and breathing hard too. Hopefully Ill be able to post tonight what the doc said..

Lucky Charms

I am on a lucky charms kick right now. Breakfast & dinner (lunch sometimes too) that's all I want to eat. I guess since Marty is gone & I don't have to cook a whole lot then cereal is what I will eat. Cooking for my boys is not that hard because I have one that doesn't want a whole lot to eat because he is so picky and I have one that will eat just about anything. I haven't cooked a meal since Marty came home in March. I know lucky charms isn't the best cereal to eat but it sure is good and sweet. Oh well it may not be the best for my diet but I'm enjoying it!!

working with this name thing

GROUCHY

Oh my Lord this 1000 calorie a day is getting to me and it is only day 2. I has a bad headache this afternoon and I'm craving chocolate cake, like really bad. I know this will take time and my body will get used to this but I'm so grouchy...I'm eating jello right now, it doesn't taste like chocolate cake though. :(
Pray that I don't loose my mind during this wonderful time of my life...haha
I miss you chocolate

20 pounds later

I went for my weight check on Tuesday. I'm at 165. I haven't seen 165 in a LONG time. I still have 35 more pounds to go but hopefully Ill be able to get back into a routine of exercising soon. My boys will be out of school soon so Ill be able to take them to the walking track with me when I get off work. I know I can do this, if Ive lost 20lbs already then I can loose 35 more.
When I went for my weight check Dr Madonia gave me another B12 shot and told me to come back in 2 weeks for another one and 30 days for another weight check. Then he dropped the bomb on me... he wants me to stick to a 1,000 calorie diet. I have a feeling that I'm about to get mean until I can adjust to this properly. I hate the fact that I have to give up so much that I love. Well I don't have to give it up I just have to ask myself "do I really need this". I asked myself this today when we had chocolate bday cake at work and of course I convinced myself I needed a piece. I haven't eaten anything since.... there went those 1000 calories for the day.
Oh well, it is a work in progress and one that I hope to have accomplished by the time I have to wear a bathing suit! I was happy though when I went to buy a dress this weekend and I had to go down 2 sizes. :)
Before I log off I want to say Congrats to Robbie and Ashley, they are some friends of mine and my husband. Robbie FINALLY proposed tonight!! Congrats you two, I love yall

My weekend with my hubby...ALONE!!!

So I left Friday morning at 6 to go see my hubby in Virginia. I'm so glad I did, it was time alone that we needed because we haven't had time alone to enjoy each other in ALONG time. When I arrived he took me to a little Italian restaurant and the food was so good, after that we went back to the hotel to "rest" before we went out again. We went to Virginia Beach that afternoon and walked around for a little while. For dinner we went to The Cheesecake Factory.....it was soooo gooood!! The strawberry cheesecake I had was delicious too.
Saturday morning my Marty woke me up at 6:30 in the morning. I was anting to sleep but he insisted that I get up and get ready. i asked where we were going and of course he tells me it is a surprise. I get ready even though I so did not want to. We get in the car and I fall asleep on our 2 hour ride. When I wake up we are in DC. We went & got our all day passes and got on the metro train. My first for everything. We went to Arlington Cemetery first and it is so amazing, we also got to witness the changing of the guards witch can be very emotional. After the we went and looked at the White House, The Linchon Memorial (from a distance). We were going to go to the Capital but it was to long of a walk and it was late and I was TIRED. There is so much more that I want to go and see when I go back out there. It is a beautiful place and I cant wait till my boys get bigger so I can take them.
On Sunday we got up and went to Yorktown which is so beautiful and perfect. I was admiring the houses that look out over the beach. I was thinking how nice it would be to wake up to that every morning!! We walked around & looked at the Historical homes. Marty found one that he liked and said that he is going to continue playing the lottery so he can buy it for me. I told him to keep dreaming!!
Then it was time for me to leave :(.........we got to the airport & my flight was already delayed by 20 minutes. Marty kept trying to get me to switch my ticket for Monday morning. I told him I couldn't because I didn't request off from work. I should have listened & stayed one more night.
I kissed him bye and cried all the way to Atlanta.
I had a 2 hour layover in Atlanta, so I found my gate and went and got me a smoothie and water and sat down and read my book for a little while. When it was finally time to get on the plane at 9:30 pm I was happy and ready to leave the airport. We load the plane and as it is taking off it is making a horrible noise where the landing gear goes. Then it finally stopped....30 minutes later the pilot comes over the speaker to say that they are having difficulty with the landing gear 7 have done a check list and they have to take the plane back to Atlanta. NOT WHAT I WANTED TO HEAR. We get back to the airport only to be told that we will not be leaving Atlanta tonight. UGH.....
So we get our food vouchers $7.00 (whoopee), hotel voucher (roach hotel) & my plane ticket for 1:30 pm the next day. Oh God help me.
I cried, I was TIRED and wanted to sleep and wanted my husband and my kids.
I called Marty to tell him ( he was asleep and probably didn't know half of what I was saying!), then I call my momma. The hotel they put us in stunk so bad when you walked in the door, I said to my self that I was NOT staying in this place & by the Grace of God because he was listening to me the hotel did not have any vacancy. They send over to the Comfort Inn across the street cause the said they would take our vouchers. It was a little bit better but not much.
Anyways, I'm home even though I wish i was still in Virginia with Marty. If it wasn't for the fact that my babies were here waiting for me I would have stayed longer. It was a wonderful weekend and I cant wait to go again. My hubby is finally starting to realize I believe how much he loves us and misses us. The other day when he needed some receipts he and I faxed everything to him he told me that he didn't know what he would do without me. FINALLY YOU REALIZE THIS!!!
I may talk about how bad he gets on my nerves but I do LOVE him!!

Still In Atlanta

I'm still in Atlanta until 1:30 this afternoon. My flight was canceled due to the landing gear on the plane that was in the air that i was on was not working correctly so we had to turn around and go back to the Atlanta airport. The airport put us up in a cheap hotel which is where I'm at now and gave us $7.00 to eat off of. WHOOPEE.
Ill post more when I get back to my house tonight and get settled. I did have a WONDERFUL weekend with my hubby and I am ready to go back.
Will post more later!! Ive got to go back to the airport now and spend my big bucks at the airport on some food!!