Just some thoughts

Well Marty has been home for a month now and I am slowly getting use to him being back and then there are days that I am ready to ship him back off too! Since Marty has been home he has went back out to the shipyard to work and while he was gone for 8 months there were alot of changes made in his department. QA went to Union which changed everything for them...NO sick time, NO more overtime (unless they really need you), No more accruing vacation time you get it on your anniversary that you signed up with NG and so on and so on. Anyways Marty has applied for several other places he has heard from some but we are waiting on one certain job so please PRAY that he will hear back from this certain job and that he will get a interview and possibly get hired. Also PRAY for Marty's dad he was readmitted to the hospital on Wednesday he has two other strokes and now has a blood clot in his lungs. The doctors still do not know what has caused any of it but his daddy has alot of illnesses too ( diabetes, high cholesterol and he is very obese.

On a happier note I hope everyone had a very Merry Christmas! I got something that I have been wanting for a LONG time...all of the carpet was ripped out of my house and new laminate wood floors were put in!! NO CARPET IN THE HOUSE!!! I am a happy person right now. "Santa" brought us Guitar Hero world tour for Christmas this year so me and Marty and the kids have been rocking out at the house this weekend!! Noah is a big singer and it is so funny to watch how he really gets into it and Hayden...well he is trying on the drums and maybe he will get that you have to hit the color that is on the screen! I wish you could all see Marty sing Micheal Jackson's "Beat It" it was so funny!!

I hope everyone has a safe and Happy New Year...until then!!!

Home is where....

Home is where my husband finally is...at least for the past two nights!! Marty came home Friday, when I got home from work we loaded up and headed to Hattiesburg. Marty's dad is in the hospital so we went to see him. Needless to say I got two nights with my hubby!! He is staying with his dad tonight at the hospital so I don't mind. I'm glad he is home but yes he had already started to aggravate me some!!!!! But what husband doesn't aggravate their wife?? I'm ready to get my Christmas stuff out and get the house decorated! I will be doing all of that on Wednesday since I will be at my in-laws house for Thanksgiving and I will be shopping all day Friday (but I will start on Thursday night with my friends!!).
I went and saw my friend Candi today, she came home from the hospital and she looked good, the only bad part is that she has to go back on Tuesday for some more outpatient surgery on her left breast. The tissue isn't working so they are going to get some tissue flown in tomorrow so she can have the surgery on Tuesday. I told her I had more than enough tissue to donate that they didn't need to send some!! Pray for Candi, she is a little down right now about all of this but she knows this was the best option for her in her situation.
This week is going to busy for me but im excited about going out with my friends Thursday night to start our Christmas shopping!!
Hope everyone has a GREAT week and a HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!

9 months later

After 9 LONG (but fun) months Marty will be returning home for good!! Am I happy?? Of course I am but ask me that next week when he starts invading my space!! We will have alot to catch up on, I am glad that he went to work in another state because I probably would have never taken a trip to Virginia. I must say it was a beautiful state and I would even consider living there...but it is to far away from my momma nd my friends!! Pray for Marty's dad he had a stroke this morning and we really don't know much of anything other than they have run some test on him and his stepmom is waiting on the results. We will probably be making a trip to Hattiesburg this weekend to see them. On another note I am happy to say that my friend Candi who had a double macestomy and reconstructive surgery done on Monday and then had to go back in for surgery on Tuesday due to a blood clot on her left side is now doing very well. She is a trooper and I applaud her for what she did to protect herself down the road from getting cancer since she has such a HIGH RISK of getting cancer. Pray that she will continue to get better so she can go home. Anyways, I have a few more things to do before Marty gets home tomorrow!!!!

Where have I been??

i know, I haven't posted anything in a long time. I try to read everyone blog each week but I never seem to post anything. So where have I been.....???? BUSY is all I have to say. For the past 8 almost 9 months I have been a single momma since Marty has been in Virginia working. I am glad he went to work out there cause I may have never even thought about going to Virginia. I went and I loved it up there, almost to the point that if Marty called me to say they want him to stay for good and that we were moving I would have said ALRIGHTY then!! But then again I would have been very sad leaving my family and all of my FRIENDS behind. I have some wonderful friends that have helped me and kept me company these past 8 months and I wouldn't have been able to do it without them. Marty has missed so much this year, Hayden graduated from preschool and started kindergarten. He saw a few ballgames when he was home on the weekends. I know he hates missing stuff the boys are doing but he is providing for his family. I feel like it helped our marriage out alot and we enjoy each other more now. Lets see if I'm saying that in 15 days when he comes home!! LOL
Im ready for him to be home though and Im ready for the holidays. After the first of the year Marty may be leaving to go to California to work. I have to say I am not to disappointed in that since I would love to visit San Diego! We will just ahve to wait and see!!

What Im Thinking....

I'm having some issues. I am so sick of people trying to be something or someone they are not. I also cannot stand when someone LIES to get attention. I mean seriously people do you have to make up some outrageous story to make your life look like a fairy tale. Money doesn't grow on trees ( at least I ha vent found the tree yet). I am not trying to say that I am jealous of someone Else's life because I'm not. I am perfectly happy with what i have and what I am able to do. Yes I would like to be able to do more and even have a little more but that will come with time. I just do not know how some people do it sometimes, you know the ones that throw money around like it grows on a tree in their back yard. The lying part is what hurts the most.
Anyways, I'm sure this is going to throw some people off but I just wanted to say what I was thinking.....

Be THANKFUL for your mother everyday

Last week has been a sad week. A co-worker and very good friend of mine called me Sunday a week ago to let me know that her mom was in the ICU on a ventilator and not doing well. I had just seen her mom the day before and granted she was sick and I could tell I never expected for that to be the last time that I speak to her or see her. Kaila (my friend and co-worker) was very close to her mother and loved her and talked to her everyday. Kaila is a only child so her mom was like her sister. After getting the phone call on Friday afternoon that her mom had passed away all I could do was cry. My heart hurt for Kaila and her family. Kaila's mom was only 47. Her mom was not a sickly person she passed away because she had a bad case of pneumonia and did not get it treated properly. So if you are like me, I called my mom and proceeded to tell her that if she even gets a cough she is going to the doctor. I DO NOT know or CANNOT even begin to imagine what it would be like not to have my mom around anymore. So therefore I will never go a day without telling my mother that I love her. Life is short so live it to the fullest!

Catching up

Okay so Ive been out of blog land for about a month. I have been SUPER busy over the past month. School started and having a 3rd grader and a kindergartner while playing single mom can be a little tough sometimes. Noah is enjoying 3rd grade so far this year and yesterday he got his progress report. I was proud of my man and his 3 A's and 2 B's. We are going to work on those B's and turn them into A's! Hayden is enjoying kindergarten even though he has already missed several days of school because of sickness. I was afraid of this, his first week of school he missed 2 days because of a stomach bug and last week he missed 2 days because he was in the hospital with the croup for one day out of those 2 days. Hayden has always been my sick child and I am hoping as he gets older he will out grow this. His daddy was the same way as he was growing up and when his daddy gets sick now you would think he was dying! LOL I think every man is like that though!!
Work has been a place I will call HELL right now. I work cor a Children's Clinic and flu season has hit 2 months early and it is complete chaos. We turned in out time sheets today and in the past 2 weeks I have been at that place for 94 hours and trust me my body is feeling it.
Other than school and work we haven't done much more around here. Marty has been home 3 times recently and we have had some pretty good weekends. Hayden has his first soccer game on Saturday so I will be posting some pics from that...sometime!
I had the IUD put in about a week ago and I can honestly say I cant wait to see if I don't have a period with this. Who knows how it will work but I will see.
I also want to say Thank You to my great friends. Since Marty has been gone these past 7 months I have leaned on my friends alot and I am so happy that I have great friends that are here to help me with anything! I love yall!

Test results.....

So last month I posted about possibly having a hysterectomy and that my doctor wanted to do a procedure first before we took that step. Well I went last week for my sonogram and biopsy. My doctor called me back yesterday with my results. He told me that I have Simple Hyperplasia...Ok what is that mean I ask? He tells me that I am not ovulating and that I need to take birth control for the progesterone, he also said that simple hyperplasia is the least likely to turn in cancer.. THANK YOU GOD.
Anyways he ask if I wanted a birth control called in....UMMMMMMMMM.....NO. I ha vent taken birth control in 6 years and im not one to remember to take one everyday especially when I do not need it, so I am having the IUD put in next week. I hope this works out well and takes care of my problem. I have heard great stories and HORROR stories about the IUD. I guess I will just have to wait and see what I think of it!
My husband who is still out of town called me everyday last week to see if I ahd heard from the doctor yet well when I told him today that i got the results back adn I explained what the doctor said all he could say is I dont know what any of that means but I Love You! Then he proceeds to ask if I am going to be ok! Gotta love a man that doesnt have a clue!

Wordless Wednesday...Sitting on the edge of the Lincoln Memorial

Thinking about.....

I cant believe I am going to post this but oh well I might as well because I would like some feed back on what to do. This week I went to my OBGYN for my yearly check up. Oh what fun...NOT anyways I went and we talked about something. To begin with I do not take birth control because my husband had a vasectomy done 6 years ago so I figure what is the point. I don't like trying to take a pill at the same time everyday I cant remember to do that. So I am talking with my doctor and I tell him that I have some problems with my period each month and the first thing he asks me is "Do you want a Hysterectomy?"......well yes and no I tell him. So what we have decided to do is a test and a biopsy, after the results come back we will go from there he also told me that the IUD is another option if I want it. But I keep throwing the hysterectomy question up in the air...Should I or Shouldn't I? Yes it would be WONDERFUL not having to worry about a period each month. If your wondering yes I would like to have another baby but since my husband has already had his vasectomy then we will not be having another one, so should I consider this??
Ive spoken to many people about the IUD and I have heard the ups and the downs to having that put in..especially your story Tracy!
Like I said I would love feedback on this, I go to have my test done on August 11th so it will be awhile before I make a final decision.
Thankd for your input.

Home is where....

Home is where I am at now but my heart is still in Virginia....we made it home safe and sound around 8:30. They boys and I had a wonderful time in Virginia with Marty. We went and did alot of stuff and ate alot of food! I will be posting pics later this week. I and happy that my boys got to experience this. Going to Washington D.C. is something that we probably would have never done but because NG has sent Marty to work in Virginia we got the chance to experience something new!
On Tuesday Marty and I celebrated our 8 year anniversary! We ate some WONDERFUL ALL YOU CAN EAT crablegs!! OMG they were sooooo gooood. The service at the restaurant was HORRIBLE but the food was good! Marty took me back to the CHEESECAKE FACTORY yesterday! It was wonderful too and so was my cheesecake.
We had a wonderful trip & I am glad to be home but I also would love to still be in Virginia with my hubby. When we got to Atlanta I turned on my phone and I had a voicemail...my husband was actually crying & telling me that he already missed us. That is a first....
Ill have more this week ont eh trip with some great pics!

8 years ago today...

8 years ago today I married the man I love. 8 years ago today we started our life together as husband and wife, we promised to love each other till death do us part. You have given me 2 beautiful children and I love you very much. I cant wait to see what the next 8 years will hold for us for our children.
Happy Anniversary Marty, I love you

On Vacation....

Well we are in Virginia this week. We arrived Friday night around 8:15 and had to stand around for another 15 minutes waiting for my luggage. Lets back up to before I left though, on Thursday I stated to feel a little panicked about leaving. I'm not scared of flying, I love to fly. I was panicked about Atlanta airport and toting my 2 boys behind me while we ran to our next gate! i calmed down some on Thursday night and got up Friday morning and went to work. I was excited and ready to go! i left work at 12 and picked the boys up at my in-laws and we headed to Mobile. We got to the Mobile airport and the boys were so excited. Got the bags checked in and went to security and of course Hayden sets of the alarm.... I made him come back and take everything out of his pockets, there was nothing in them...hmmm oh yeah he had a HUGE watch on his arm that his daddy gave him last week that was setting off the alarm! Only Hayden could manage to do that! We made it through security after that and went to our gate, we were a hour early but better early than running to get there. As we were sitting and waiting I started to feel like I was having a anxiety attack, I was having trouble breathing and my chest was getting tight, then my phone rang. Yes Marty i made it to the airport and we are at the gate...he proceeds to tell me that I will be getting off at C31 in Atlanta and will have to go to gate B...anxiety start to set in worse and I get snippy with him. He tells me we will have enough time and that we will make it to the next gate.Ive done it lots of times....I tell him he may have done it lots of times but he has never had to make sure the 3 kids that are with you are behind you too. I told him I would call him when I get to Atlanta and that I love him. It was safe for him to say "ok, love you too" before I started chewing him out.
We board the plane in Mobile and make it to Atlanta, as we get off the plane I go to the big screens to find our next gate....we are at C31 and we have to go to B10...and the plane is already at the gate. CRAP, let the running begin. We had to go down and catch the train that goes to the next level. We made it as they were starting to board the plane. My blood pressure goes back to normal now!
Anyways we are in Virginia and I love this state. It is so pretty and the weather is so nice. The highs have only been in the low 80's and there is always a breeze. When we got here Friday night is was actually kind of cool outside and I knew I should have packed a light jacket. Oh well. We have been busy since we arrived and it will continue until we leave. Tomorrow we will visit Busch Gardens and I cant wait to ride all of the rides!
Sorry this was a long post, Ill post more about the trip later this week!

Leaving on a jet plane!

So I'm leaving on a jet plane (not a real jet plane!) on Friday and going to Virginia!
The boys and I are going to go stay with Marty for a week. I'm not sure what all he has planned for us but I'm sure it will be fun! He will have to work some while we are there but that is fine too. Maybe I'll be able to relax for a little while! So much has been going on the past couple of weeks. Noah and I went to Atlanta with the church choir. We had a good time, we went to Stone Mountain on Monday night when we got there, on Tuesday we went to Six Flags. The kids sang 3 songs and then we were let loose in the park to have a good time. Noah didn't really want to ride any rides so I went with Paul (thanks again Jennifer for letting me use your husband that day!)and we rode the big roller coasters! Jennifer joined us on one and it was so much fun! After a little bribing I convinced Noah that he needed to try a ride. He went on a water ride (small) and loved it so next stop was a bigger one. He loved it too and if we had enough time I may have been able to convince him to get on a roller coaster, but we ran out of time. Maybe he will get on one when we go to baush gardens next week! On Wednesday we went to the water park. The first thing I get on I had to sit at the end and pull all of my bathing suit out of my butt. I know not a pretty picture! :) I also went on one that was 90 feet tall and a straight drop down, once a gain I had to pull everything out of at the end! It was a short trip and we enjoyed it. Marty came home Wednesday night and I was happy to see him home early when I got home on Thursday! We had a wonderful weekend with the kids and with our friends. Marty left yesterday afternoon to go back to Virginia and he is looking forward to us joining him on Friday night. I have so much to do and I really don't know where to start. When I get back Ill post pics. I would post some from Atlanta but they my computer isn't wanting to cooperate with me. Sorry ;(

Happy 4th of July

I know this is a little early but i will be super busy tomorrow so I wanted to post this today. Ive been out of blog land for awhile. Between work and my boys and a recent vacation I have been busy. I do enjoy reading everybodys post at night. This past week Noah and I have been in Atlanta Georgia for his church choir trip. I enjoyed spending time with him this week and I am thankful I had the opportunity to go and spend that quality time with him. We had a blast at six flags riding a few rides that i had to bribe him to get on but he loved it once he did ride them. The same goes for the waterpark the next day. I will post more about this next week when I get a chance along with some pics.
I just wanted to tell everyone do have a fun & safe 4th of July tomorrow. I am grateful for all of the men and women out there that put their life on the line to fight for our freedom. My cousin is in the military and is leaving to go to Germany which is where he wil be stationed for the next 3 years. When he arrives in Germany he will be there for little while before he recieves his paperwork for his 3rd tour of duty. Please keep him in your prayers.
Have a great day tomorrow and enjoy it!

Busy Busy Busy

Sorry it has been awhile since Ive post anything. When I get home after work I'm tired and so I play on Facebook, feed & bathe my boys do some laundry and go to bed. Anyways, so far we have had a busy summer. Noah turned 8 years old last Friday. My baby is getting big he went in for his 8 year check up today and was only 57 pounds and he is 50 inches tall. He will pass me up in about 2 years but as my husband would say that isn't saying much. In a few weeks Noah and I will be going to Six Flags in Georgia for his choir trip. That should be interesting.....when we get back from that trip Marty will be coming home for the weekend which will be 4th of July weekend and he will go back to Virginia on Tuesday, on Friday the 10th me & the boys will be flying out to stay with him!! We are excited about going to Virginia to see daddy and getting to do a lot of fun things. Well I'm going to leave you with a few pictures to enjoy. Some are from our recent beach trip that we took on Sunday with Kelli and her boys!! We had a blast and cant wait to do something fun with them again! The other picture will be one that I will be able to use as black mail one day!! You will see why when you see this picture, I took it because I thought it was to funny :) Enjoy!!














HAHA Blackmail!!

Wordless Wednesday.. Hayden & "his girl"

Our weekend

Marty was home this weekend and he wanted to take the kids bowling!! The only bowling we have done is on the wii and the last time Marty & I went bowling was before I got pregnant with Hayden 6 years ago. It was so much fun to watch the boys bowl. Noah beat all of us & he had a cast on his arm. The weekend was fun and enjoyable. On Saturday Marty & I went riding on his motorcycle to hattiesburg to eat at a barbecue restaurant called Leatha's. Marty read about it in the back of the sky miles magazine on his way home Friday. It was so gooood if we were not on the motorcycle I would have brought home a slab of ribs!! Anyways, Marty left to go back to his home away from home today but he will be home for the 4th of July and then me and the kids will fly out to Virginia to stay a week with him. We are excited about going and the boys are excited about flying for the first time. i don't know how excited I am about flying with the kids by myself but we will make it. One last thing before I post some pictures from bowling I would like to ask every to pray for my friend Jennifer Spiriti. Jennifer and her husband have tried for YEARS to get pregnant & seceded once but it ended in a miscarriage so they prayed and decided to take the adoption route. Last week she received a phone call that there was a 3 month old baby girl available and that the mother would be looking at the scrapbook they put together but that the mother would also be looking at another family's scrapbook too. They told her that they would contact her at the end of this week to let her know. She knows that if God wants them to have this baby then he will provide. Pray that it will be in Gods will for them to have this baby girl. They have been waiting and trying for over 10 years and they are ready to provide a baby with a good home. Thanks again & enjoy the pictures!!



Noah


Noah bowling


Hayden


Hayden Bowling



Like father like son



Hayyden took this pic of us, would have been good if the light wasnt reflecting in the pic!!

Wordless Wednesday!! Im going to find it!!!

Our new yard work

I'm so not happy right now and havent been since last Thursday when I got home to see that there was red dirt in my yard and a baco digging a big hole in between mine and my neighbors yard. This is all because of this stupid sewage system they want all of us to have here in the country. If I wanted a sewage system & to be under a boil water notice all the time I would live in the city. So here are a few pics of what is going on while I'm not home during the day.

Hayden's graduation

Henry,Jacob & Hayden



Well we are done, my baby graduated from preschool and all I have to do now is wait till high school graduation comes around and thank goodness that is a long time away. We got to the church and as usual it was crazy. A bunch of kids running around all excited. It was cute and everyone did good. Hayden was a Police officer and he said his part pretty well....they did a slide show and I was fine until my Hayden's picture was up there and that is when I wanted to cry. Wait a minute I did. I know its crazy but this is my last one to do this so it was a little emotional. Anyways some of my pics did not turn out so well but I will share some with you.
Enjoy!!!


Me and my Hayden



Hayden & Kallie (his girl)



A police office I will be....

My baby is growing up

Well tonight I will be going to Hayden's preschool graduation. I still do not want to believe that my baby is going to kindergarten in August. It makes me sad. Everyday my boys are getting bigger and they are growing up and it hurts. I know they will always need me in some way and I will always be there for them, but I also realize that the "baby" days are over.
I will have pics up tomorrow from tonight's ceremonies.

Happy Mothers Day

Happy Mothers Day to everyone. I hope everyone had a wonderful Mothers Day. Mine on the other hand was interesting. We went to church this morning and after that we headed to town. I has so much to do before 5 o clock. Went to my grandmothers for lunch and I had promised the boys that I would take them to the beach to play in the sand before we went to Nana and Pawpaws. On the way to the Pascagoula beach (if you want to call it a beach) I was traveling down Washington St to get to the Beach park and as soon as I get to the park low and behold if it isn't a Pascagoula cop sitting there with radar. He turns on his lights and I pull into the park. He writes me a ticket for doing 36 in a 25. I seriously do not know what the speed limit is on Washington because there is not a sign to tell you. I think every Pascaoula cop that was on duty today was at the Beach park today trying to meet there monthly quota. AAAWWW I was so aggravated. He gave me my ticket and I said "thank you". Took the boys to the beach and they had fun but I was mad. When I got home I called my hubby and asked him what he was up to, he told me and then I told him that I was mad. He asked why and I told him what happened. He was a little frustrated that he gave me a ticket for 11 miles when he says it is normally 15 miles over that they will stop you. He got all the info from me and said he would call me back. He did call me back but I wasn't near my phone so I missed it so he text me to say "I got your ticket torn up happy mothers day" Yea!! Anyways that was my interesting mothers day. Hope everyone had a better one than I did!!
I'm in the process of slowly redoing my blog so please bare with me. Kelli is helping me cause she is good at this stuff and I'm not so talented and I do need help with it!! Thanks Kelli!!

Lessons you learn having boys

I have always thought that Hayden would be my child that I would be in and out of the emergency room with due to broken bones, open wounds that need stitches..etc and who is to say that it will not be him but as of right now Noah is in the running for first place in this category. About 3 years ago during the Christmas holidays my boys were at my in laws one day & I receive a phone call. It was my mother-in-law calling to tell me that Noah had busted the top of his head open on there fire place. GREAT, at the time I had a friend that worked at On Call medical clinic in OS. I called her and told her that I really didn't want to have to go to the ER could I just come there to see if he needed stitches. She said yes so we head over there and get stitches in his head. We have been major accident free since then until last night. Noah had stayed at my moms while I took Hayden to his ball game. Before the game started my mom called me.... Noah has fallen off the side of Andrew's bed and hurt his arm. I asked if it was swollen and it wasn't so I told her to put some ice on it and give him some Tylenol for the pain and to call me if it gets worse. I so did not feel like going to the ER and sit for 6 hours. I get to moms after the game and he is sitting at the table eating with a pack of peas on his wrist. I look and it wasn't to bad but I could tell it hurt him to move it. I took him to the doctor this morning hoping he would say it is nothing but a sprain. Did he say that??? NO, he looked at the way he was holding his arm out and told him to hold it out straight and to turn it. That hurt when he turned it so Dr Jamal looked at me and said it is either fractured or broke I'm sending you to the orthopedist. GREAT here comes a big bill..lol. We get over there they took 3 xrays the doctor walked in for all of 1 minute to Noah what he did and to say that his wrist was broke and that he would need a cast for the next 4 weeks. Nurse came in asked what color he wanted (green) and she put it on. He thinks it is the coolest thing ever. Thank goodness he only has to wear it for 4 weeks cause he loves to swim. Anyways, cant wait to see how much this is going to cost me!! :)

Is ready for a vacation

I'm ready to FLY!!! Over the weekend my husband came home and we had a great weekend. We went to Hayden's ball game on Friday night, Saturday morning we went riding on his motorcycle. Yes I know it is dangerous and yes I was praying hard before we got on it and while we were on it, but it was a nice short ride! Anyways while he was home he checked his sky miles online and proceeded to see that we almost have enough sky miles for all 3 of us to fly out to see him in Virginia!! We may only have to purchase one ticket but we will wait and see when it is time. I'm so excited about taking my boys to Virginia and they are excited about riding in a airplane.
I'm just ready to go on a vacation and get away for awhile. I'm also ready to hit up the beach and play in the sand and the water. Noah and Hayden are about to drive me crazy because they are ready to go to the beach too.
This summer should be fun and I'm ready to hit it full blast!!

Does absence make the heart grow fonder??

Well it has officially been 2 months since Marty went to Virginia to work. So I have been asking myself the question "does absence make the heart grow fonder"? I have been told this frequently. As many of you know I used to stay angry or upset with my husband. There were some days that I seriously wanted to pack mine and the kids things and leave. Our marriage hasnt been perfect my any means and we have had some serious downfalls in the short period that we have been married. There have been times when I just want to say "why dont you get it", "why cant you appreciate what I do for you"? I have been emotionally drained several times because of some of the stupid things he does. He has never cheated on me, the only other thing in his life is the Reserves and that has been the downfall in our marriage since he joined in 2006. He has missed out on alot because of the Reserves and when I confront him with it he just argues with me and tells me to get over it. I told him to go live with one of the guys in the Reserves and see if they wash his clothes and fold them & see if they like to cuddle in the bed with him....he still didnt get it. Anyways back to my question, well my answer is "YES". With Marty being gone it has been hard, I do MISS him and I do LOVE my husband very much. But now when I call him in the afternoon to say hey he is happy to hear from me, when he comes home he is excited to see me and wants to hold on to me longer. I send him text everyday that I love him and he sends them back. I also like to surprise him by sending him a card by mail to the hotel that he is staying in. I sent one last week and he recieved it on Monday, he text me to let me know that he recieved his card and that he "LOVED IT AND LOVES ME". Yes I can honestly say I was in total shock!! Marty is coming home this weekend and Im looking foward to our time together.

My nerves are shot

My nerves are shot so I'm not even going to try to figure out how to move my signature thing to the bottom of this, it is aggravating me...
I think I'm just tired and overwhelmed and as I write this I'm ready to just cry. I don't know what it is, well I'm lying I do know what it is. Hayden is still coughing his head off and I'm going to keep him out of school for the rest of the week. That means he doesn't get to go on his end of the year field trip with his class. They are going to to Bouncin Wild and if he goes hen he would get all hot and start coughing to the point that he would probably throw up. He is such a ACTIVE child and cant sit still. He will also miss out on his tball game this week too. I wish he could just get better.
I'm feeling much better (other than my nerves). I had a good day today so I don't understand why all of a sudden I feel like I do. Maybe it is because I'm going to bed alone and I miss my husband, maybe I'm tired of my children not wanting to listen to me and I'm always having to get on to them about something, maybe I just need a vacation. Oh well tomorrow is another day and hopefully I will feel better by morning. Only a week and a half until Marty comes home for the weekend so maybe that will help too!!